Though I’ve been using this blog lately to update my adventures in Korea…this post is going to be more like a diary then anything. (Mike Fox…don’t bother reading.)
I had an interesting discussion with my friend last night on the phone, and we were discussing our respective relationships while traveling in other countries. Right now, I’m at a dead end with mine and can’t figure out exactly why I am so enamored with the person I’ve been spending my time with. My friend quickly recounted how he felt there was a strong connection with someone while he was in Australia, but when they spent time in the States a few months later, the novelty had quickly worn off.
We were both quick to decide that without the magic of being in a foreign place, maybe the person doesn’t seem as enjoyable as they did before. I am currently in the same place, wondering…why do I actually like this person, why am I being needy and changing the way that I act in a relationship because of him?
I think this post is turning confusing….but It’s nice to get it off my chest. In the States, I was never the needy girl in a relationship, and always had my head on straight. For the past few days, I’ve been trying to figure out why this has been different in Korea. Is it because there is a strong cultural difference between the way this boy and I deal with relationships. Am I expecting an American boy’s Bravado, and falling very short of it…. or is it based solely in the fact that I’m in Korea.
Though my transition to living overseas has gone amazingly well, no homesickness, no crying and curling up in a ball, but maybe that homesickness is here, it’s just showing itself in different ways. I’m beginning to wonder if the majority of the reason I want to spend time with this person is that it’s easier to deal with being away from home by having someone to connect to.
After that schizophrenic post… I’m going to spend a week or so contemplating these questions… and trying to get back to my normal confident, not-so-crazy spirit of the US of A.
